Its been 11 years since my last miscarriage. I would be sharing my life with a 10 year old son I had carried him to term. This time of the year is always a little bitter-sweet when I consider how things would have been. At the same time, I have been able to accomplish things that I may not have been able to do because my husband and I are not raising children. Our four footed cats are quite capable of taking care of themselves when we need to be away. I will graduate with my Masters Degree in Community Counseling this Friday. I do not think I would have been able to go back to school. My husband and I have travelled many different places around the country particularly with Barbershop and Sweet Adelines. That also would have been different. I miss the opportunity to be able to share my life with a child who I hope would have enjoyed many of the same hobbies we do, music, travel, building lego. Perhaps sometime we will adopt a child, but that time is not yet. For now, we care for our kitty children and do the work we have been called to do. I know that someday I will meet my son, but until then I am very grateful for what I have, and for what this experience has given to me. I am able to reach out and touch others because of the grief and loss I have experienced. So on days like today when I am feeling a little melancholic, I reflect on the blessings I do have, and look to the future.
More later.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
On Black "Friday"
So we have arrived at Thanksgiving. For some, the day after Thanksgiving is the biggest shopping day of the year. Retailers offer special deals to draw people to spend money they don't have for items other people don't really need. So why would we want to start this sooner?
Many retailers are opening on Thanksgiving day to try to have an advantage on these bargain hunting shoppers. This requires staff to be at the store several hours before opening, and to be there sometimes all night. In today's economy, an employee would feel safe turning down a shift on Thursday night or Friday, lest they lose their jobs. Where did spending time with family go? Are people less important than more stuff? This is what it appears. Employees who work in retail have to work long days from Thanksgiving to Christmas, and the often more long shifts through New Years, only to be let go once January 2nd arrives.
Thanksgiving has been lost in the shuffle. We have so much to be thankful for, especially in America. We have the freedom to worship without much persecution. We have the chance to spend time with our family members, friends and our furry companions. We have the right to voice our opinions. Christmas stuff began to go up in stores prior to Halloween this year. Christmas specials began to appear right after Halloween, and pre-black Friday specials are already in full-swing. There is a special holiday this week and its called THANKSGIVING. If we do not stop to take time to give thanks for what we have, it proves we have truly become a selfish, self-centered society who takes for granted what we already have, and lust for more.
Do your family members really need more stuff? Wouldn't they rather spend time with you? Do we really need to spend money we don't have for stuff we don't need so we don't have the ability to help each other out when they really need the support?
Think about it, and take time to give thanks. Not just this week, but every day we have on this earth.
More later.
Many retailers are opening on Thanksgiving day to try to have an advantage on these bargain hunting shoppers. This requires staff to be at the store several hours before opening, and to be there sometimes all night. In today's economy, an employee would feel safe turning down a shift on Thursday night or Friday, lest they lose their jobs. Where did spending time with family go? Are people less important than more stuff? This is what it appears. Employees who work in retail have to work long days from Thanksgiving to Christmas, and the often more long shifts through New Years, only to be let go once January 2nd arrives.
Thanksgiving has been lost in the shuffle. We have so much to be thankful for, especially in America. We have the freedom to worship without much persecution. We have the chance to spend time with our family members, friends and our furry companions. We have the right to voice our opinions. Christmas stuff began to go up in stores prior to Halloween this year. Christmas specials began to appear right after Halloween, and pre-black Friday specials are already in full-swing. There is a special holiday this week and its called THANKSGIVING. If we do not stop to take time to give thanks for what we have, it proves we have truly become a selfish, self-centered society who takes for granted what we already have, and lust for more.
Do your family members really need more stuff? Wouldn't they rather spend time with you? Do we really need to spend money we don't have for stuff we don't need so we don't have the ability to help each other out when they really need the support?
Think about it, and take time to give thanks. Not just this week, but every day we have on this earth.
More later.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
On College Football
This weekend was the kickoff of College football. Now don't get me wrong - I enjoy a good football game as much as anyone - but I really do not get the cult following I see in particular with college football. I live in Springfield, Oregon where the UO Ducks are king. 45 miles up the road are the OSU Beavers in Corvallis. You see people driving around with team colors on their cars, team flags and pomp pomps and other assorted decorations. Both teams lost yesterday. The sun still came up this morning. These are young men playing this game - typically 19 - 24 year olds. These kids are still learning...and football is ONLY a game. Win or lose, life will continue.
We yell and scream at the players, coaches and referees. We question the coaches decisions. We cheer when something good happens, and boo when something bad happens. We spend huge amounts of money to see our favorite team play. We wonder why these kids make what we consider "stupid" decisions taking special perks, or driving too fast, or getting into a fight. Yes, those were not smart decisions, but those things happen every day to other college students who are not athletes, and no one ever hears about them unless someone is hurt or killed.
These kids who may be away from home for the first time are under huge amounts of pressure to perform. They are expected to attend classes, and do well, be at practice and play hard, and not make mistakes on game day. They love to play the game, and they love to please their coaches and fans.
So the next time you are watching a college football game - keep this is mind. Have some compassion for those kids - they are not being paid for what they are doing (don't give me the "they are getting their education" line) that's for another discussion on another day. They still are still growing up. For that matter, as a fan, behave as the adults you should be - to set a good example.
More later.
We yell and scream at the players, coaches and referees. We question the coaches decisions. We cheer when something good happens, and boo when something bad happens. We spend huge amounts of money to see our favorite team play. We wonder why these kids make what we consider "stupid" decisions taking special perks, or driving too fast, or getting into a fight. Yes, those were not smart decisions, but those things happen every day to other college students who are not athletes, and no one ever hears about them unless someone is hurt or killed.
These kids who may be away from home for the first time are under huge amounts of pressure to perform. They are expected to attend classes, and do well, be at practice and play hard, and not make mistakes on game day. They love to play the game, and they love to please their coaches and fans.
So the next time you are watching a college football game - keep this is mind. Have some compassion for those kids - they are not being paid for what they are doing (don't give me the "they are getting their education" line) that's for another discussion on another day. They still are still growing up. For that matter, as a fan, behave as the adults you should be - to set a good example.
More later.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Reflections on Birth and Death days....
Three years ago today my father-in-law Ira Carlton Crandall passed away suddenly. Today is my fathers 77th birthday. We had breakfast with my parents to celebrate my father's birthday. For dinner we went to Red Robin to celebrate my birthday which is coming up on the 30th. The service for Carl was held on my 40th birthday. I know that people make a big deal of turning 40...all about being over the hill. But there is something about being in a memorial service for someone you love on that particular birthday that gives on pause. We will never forget that week. Rushing to pack to go to California knowing that Carl was not doing well, only to get the phone call every child dreads to receive....
It seems like it was just yesterday. So as we celebrated my dad's birthday today, I found myself thinking about those events, and wanting to hold on to my dad just for another second. I struggled with the fact that a family celebration and tragedy happened on the same day/week...why did it have to be that way? I struggled with feeling that somehow I was robbed of something special, a birthday that will come only once. And yet as time has gone by I have come to realize that it really gave me a special perspective. My dad shares a birthday with the day that Carl was re-born into heaven. And I share a birthday with the day that we remembered and honored him for the wonderful father, dad and Navy officer that he had been. We still sense his presence at different times. He didn't miss the family reunion in Hawaii in 2009 - he came when it rained. His sense of humor which I witness in my own husband on a daily basis. Yes, it was a tragic day of loss...but in another sense he continues on our lives and memories - and for that I am truly thankful.
Hold your loved ones close while you still have them. Make sure you tell them you love them every chance you get. Make sure you don't regret what might be the last words you ever say to your loved one. Live life to the fullest. Don't take yourself too seriously. And one thing that Carl taught me - Drive the back roads every chance you get!!!
More later.
It seems like it was just yesterday. So as we celebrated my dad's birthday today, I found myself thinking about those events, and wanting to hold on to my dad just for another second. I struggled with the fact that a family celebration and tragedy happened on the same day/week...why did it have to be that way? I struggled with feeling that somehow I was robbed of something special, a birthday that will come only once. And yet as time has gone by I have come to realize that it really gave me a special perspective. My dad shares a birthday with the day that Carl was re-born into heaven. And I share a birthday with the day that we remembered and honored him for the wonderful father, dad and Navy officer that he had been. We still sense his presence at different times. He didn't miss the family reunion in Hawaii in 2009 - he came when it rained. His sense of humor which I witness in my own husband on a daily basis. Yes, it was a tragic day of loss...but in another sense he continues on our lives and memories - and for that I am truly thankful.
Hold your loved ones close while you still have them. Make sure you tell them you love them every chance you get. Make sure you don't regret what might be the last words you ever say to your loved one. Live life to the fullest. Don't take yourself too seriously. And one thing that Carl taught me - Drive the back roads every chance you get!!!
More later.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
On Social Media
I just recently signed up for a LinkedIn account. I already have a facebook account. I do not think I will be tweeting anytime soon however, but you never know. After signing up, I have found that my e-mail box is full of new connections. I am beginning to understand why employers do not want people doing social networking when they are at work. You could spend all your time doing nothing but connecting with others over the various websites. These networks are allowing me to connect with individuals I have not connected with in a number of years. But when I find myself sitting at the computer and networking instead of going outside and enjoying a beautiful summer day...that is when it seems a little out of control. With today's economy and job market, if you are looking for work the social media sites could be very helpful. The more you connect, the more you can get your name, company or product visible. I will continue to visit the social networking sites that I am connected with. I likely will not visit them everyday, and certainly not several times a day. My employer blocks such sites anyway - which does not bother me. Thank you to everyone who is willing to connect with me on the various sites. I see great value in them, but as with everything in life, make sure you are living with balance. More later....
Monday, June 20, 2011
I have a mixed marriage
I have a mixed marriage. I am a PC, my husband is a MAC. He likes summer activities - beach, sand, sun, surfing. I enjoy winter activities - skiing, tubing - you get the idea. One of our ski resorts just announced today that they are going to open up for limited skiing and snowboarding for the 4th of July weekend. I think that is really cool that we got enough snow to ski into summer. My husbands response...."that is just evil!. The fourth of July is for BBQ and picnics, not snow, cold...yuk!" Now I am not running out to purchase my ski passes, but I think it would be fun to go watch.
I am a snow-bunny. When he puts on his snow clothes he says he "looks like a pill bug on steroids!" Hey, he could go skiing and not look like a pill-bug! He is a good sport - and I enjoy doing summer activities with him too.
So as the summer solstice is upon us, and summer begins - enjoy whatever it is you want to do with your loved ones - even if you have your differences of opinion.
More later....
I am a snow-bunny. When he puts on his snow clothes he says he "looks like a pill bug on steroids!" Hey, he could go skiing and not look like a pill-bug! He is a good sport - and I enjoy doing summer activities with him too.
So as the summer solstice is upon us, and summer begins - enjoy whatever it is you want to do with your loved ones - even if you have your differences of opinion.
More later....
Saturday, June 4, 2011
So I have a blog....
My husband has a blog. My brother has a blog. So I guess I need to have a blog. I will post my thoughts from time to time as things seem important. I may even respond to my husband's blog with thoughts of my own. That is actually what prompted me to start this in the first place.
You see - he just posted (tongue in cheek I might add) about how we have to pack when we travel. I admit I miss the days when we could just pack a couple of small bags and go. Now when we go - even for a weekend we have two suitcases, two pillows and knee pillows, and two backpacks - usually carrying our electronic gear such as computers, mp3 players, speakers etc. When we go camping if my brother goes with us we are lucky to fit everything into our Honda and still have room for the three of us. (We have yet to tie anyone or anything to the roof, but it has been close...). Three suitcases (or duffel bags) three sleeping bags, camping pads, pillows, camp stove, wood for the fire, our small plug in cooler (or large ice chest), paper bags with food and water. And that is if we are cabin camping at a KOA! The one time we tent camped we had three blow up mattresses, and a couple of lanterns to add to all that. Anyway - it is not possible to pack light...even if I didn't pack a sweatshirt.
More later....
You see - he just posted (tongue in cheek I might add) about how we have to pack when we travel. I admit I miss the days when we could just pack a couple of small bags and go. Now when we go - even for a weekend we have two suitcases, two pillows and knee pillows, and two backpacks - usually carrying our electronic gear such as computers, mp3 players, speakers etc. When we go camping if my brother goes with us we are lucky to fit everything into our Honda and still have room for the three of us. (We have yet to tie anyone or anything to the roof, but it has been close...). Three suitcases (or duffel bags) three sleeping bags, camping pads, pillows, camp stove, wood for the fire, our small plug in cooler (or large ice chest), paper bags with food and water. And that is if we are cabin camping at a KOA! The one time we tent camped we had three blow up mattresses, and a couple of lanterns to add to all that. Anyway - it is not possible to pack light...even if I didn't pack a sweatshirt.
More later....
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